Will "hell" mean him?
(Taurus males in particular are specialist at this technique, but all men who may be considered "players" are subject to such bull)
The term is crude, but it summarizes the scenario. A mind fuck is where a dishonest boy tells you whatever you wanna hear, just to make things better, just so he can be on your good side & get sex - when he wants it. Every compliment, every cover up, every opinion. Nearly everything he says that comes out of his mouth is a facade to make you believe his lies. Whether it be romance, fantasy or hopes of ever lasting love, he will lay it on so thick & juicy, you will surely fall in love all over again & again... giving him just one more chance.
Whatever he says to you - will benefit him, the secrets he keeps or his selfish schemes in some way. If he could be honest enough to share his thoughts or activity, you would scream in horror at what he's been thinking about - or worst, what he's been up to. If you actually knew what he was saying behind your back - to the "other girls", you would be filled with rage & disbelief. Confusion, doubt, pity, low self esteem, self destructive, & "sabotaging" behaviors may play a big part in the drama.
But it's easier to dismiss his fowl behavior, forgiving again, so you can have your stable, happy, family unit back - until you ultimately find the truth. One day you will see his ways - up close & personal. Shocking perhaps, then sad. How could this be happening to you? You saw it coming a mile away, years before. Beginning to wonder if this is the man you really need, you realize he doesn't need you in the same way.
Hmmmm. Or maybe he was coaxed into being with you in the first place (for ever & ever) & now he regrets his choices, looking for a possible way out.
Either way, it's all an unpleasant experience.....
I am a looser because I cheated on my wife over and over (and still do). Left her & my baby at home crying every night (that's my sick power) while I hang out at the local bars. I WILL say I have changed just to get her hopes up & break it all over again. I also lost my job several times at different places because I am an alcoholic - but I wont get help, because I LOVE TO DRINK (to escape my miserable mind/life)
I refuse to pay for her & her junk food, to sit at home & watch TV all day eating. I can barely afford my racing hobbies, much less buying more home decor (clutter). I MUST PAY my child support, but it will unfortunately cut into my money for my beer, bikes, and babes. Dang. I don't even want to baby sit my daughter because I am just too damn busy DOING NOTHING. May as well just phone my maddening mistress.
So I guess I will just let that fat bitch wife work her multiple jobs trying to make ends meet and run off to the desert every chance she wants. She'll never get to spend time with OUR daughter because she is always at day care.... while I just sit on my ass calling all my buddies, banging the neighbor chicks and be the idiot I am.... NEVER amounting to anything. Heck, some girl WILL love me tonight!
AFTER ALL, THIS IS THE AMERICAN DREAM - RIGHT?
[this marriage is not a dream, it's a nightmare.]
